Now Listening: Hillsong UNITED
"Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things." - Philippians 4:8
Today has been a very tough one. Actually, the past few weeks have been very difficult for me. I feel like the world has used me as its punching bag and I’m like a boxer who can barely stand back up and brace for the next blow. I'm emotionally drained.
On my way to work I drove almost recklessly because I was just filled with so much rage. I actually tried listening to "happy" music this morning (my Spotify "happy hits" playlist), but it only managed to make me drive faster and want to punch a wall.
When I got to work, my coworkers must have sensed my mood because they immediately started trying to cheer me up.
It took one of my coworkers (the new guy) suggesting I listen to Hillsong because according to him, in times like this, that’s the only thing that will cheer me up and actually fill me with joy and happiness. I felt silly since I didn’t even know he knew who Hillsong was. I thought I was the only Christian in the room and I felt ashamed that I had not thought about this first. I had not tried to take all my troubles to Christ until he made this comment.
I searched for any Hillsong songs on my phone (there were only 4) and when this particular song came on, it immediately spoke to me. So, here I am, listening to a song about praising God even when its hard. As I listen, I can literally feel the rage leaving my body and calm taking over. I feel like my problems (that seemed like mountains) are so tiny and insignificant compared to some of the things others are actually going through. I’m thinking of past sermons by Pastor Steven Furtick where he said it's especially when it’s the hardest thing to do, that we should actually praise and worship God. I’m thinking of Job and how his afflictions were so great that his wife asked him to curse God and die. Yet, despite all the bad news, he still managed to praise God and trust him. If someone like that could manage to utter praises to God and give it all to him, what is my excuse?
20Then Job arose, and rent his mantle, and shaved his head, and fell down upon the ground, and worshipped,mantle: or, robe
21And said, Naked came I out of my mother's womb, and naked shall I return thither: the Lord gave, and the Lord hath taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord.
22In all this Job sinned not, nor charged God foolishly.
I think I’ve been living in the world for so long that I didn’t realize I had become of the world. My problems aren’t big, they are actually insignificant material things that fade away the more I delve into God’s words and promises for my life.
I guess the lesson of the day is to keep my eyes focused on Heavenly things so that the little things of this world won't drag me down so easily.
I am so thankful for journey mercies because I could have hurt someone or myself driving in such a state (and for this I am so ashamed and remorseful); for my coworker who God used to minister to me; and for Hillsong's powerful message.
I am so glad I serve the kind of God that takes me back with arms wide open and welcomes me back to him despite my prodigal child ways.
Is there any song or singer that has a similar effect on you? Let me know in the comments below.
Words and Music by Joel Houston
Verse 1 Take this fainted heart Take these tainted hands Wash me in Your love Come like grace again
Chorus 1 Even when my strength is lost I’ll praise You Even when I have no song I’ll praise You Even when it’s hard to find the words Louder then I’ll sing Your priase I will only sing Your praise I will only sing Your praise I will only sing Your praise
Verse 2 Take this mountain weight Take these ocean tears Hold me through the trial Come like hope again
Chorus 2 Even when the fight seems lost I’ll praise You Even when it hurts like hell I’ll praise You Even when it makes no sense to sing Louder then I’ll sing Your praise I will only sing Your praise I will only sing Your praise I will only sing Your praise
Bridge 1 And my heart burns only for You You are all, You are all I want And my soul waits only for You And I will sing ’til the morning has come
Bridge 2 And my heart burns only for You You are all, You are all I want And my soul waits only for You And I will sing ’til the miracle comes
Chorus 3 Even when the morning comes I’ll praise You Even when the fight is won I’ll praise You Even when my time on earth is done Louder then I’ll sing Your praise I will only sing Your praise
*Lyrics from Hillsong.com
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